Hi folks, sorry I haven't been very active on DA this month. To tell you the truth, I haven't been very active in all manner of creativity. I have a confession to make... I'm struggling with addiction.
No, it's not drugs or alcohol, I'm a neurotic video game addict. When I get started on a certain game, it becomes an obsession; I never stop playing. Hours turn into days and I don't get any work done. By the time I finish the game, I just end up feeling ashamed of myself at the time I wasted... then I start all over again. I can't help it and this needs to stop.
On my better days, I try to restrict myself to 8-bit gaming because they're quick to complete and don't trigger my obsession. But if I begin a Zelda quest or a Mario adventure, I lose all interest in getting anything drawn. I've avoided playing games like Metroid Prime, Tomb Raider or Arkham Asylum/City, because I know that it will become my sole focus and devour all my time. I wouldn't be surprised if I end up like one of those Asian kids who strokes out from exhaustion while playing at a cybercafé. That could easily be me.
It's having a detrimental effect on my life. Since I don't work, I don't get paid either. Even though I sold a third of my Transformers collection last week, I was in real danger of not paying my rent on time. I got a lifesaver from the local council at the last minute, but I need to be more self-reliant. I chose to be a freelance artist and it's time I started acting like one.
It's ironic to think that video games have inspired most of my artwork, but are also preventing me from drawing. I drew another Sonic Origins pic last week, but I've been too distracted to get it finished. How am I going to find time for myself, let alone commissions, if I'm too absorbed playing games? And with my screen malfunctioning on top of that, I have to do some serious work to earn a replacement. I want to stay focused at the drawing board, and I'd appreciate any advice from you guys. Help me kick this addiction!